Leaving the Victimhood Economy

Leaving the Victimhood Economy

I am woman with long and severe trauma history who was born on the tail end the millennial generation. In terms of victimhood economy rules I am loaded. With my artistic and writing skills I could probably draw a lot of people in if I wished to cash in my victimhood points.

Satan would have delighted in that. Plenty of people who wished to manage my talents would have appreciated if I stayed small and afraid. There is also a group of men who in the past wished to become my husband that would have appreciated if I stayed in a state of a broken woman. This would have allowed them far greater power of manipulation especially when packaged in some pink fluffy romantic fairytale saga.

However, the more I centered my life on Christ and the more I allowed him into my heart the stronger the fire within me grew. He helped me break the shackles in my life. He made me want to become the woman that God created me to be. Through him I healed deeper and grew more confident. I wanted to build a business that truly glorified the gifts that I am entrusted with.

I began to dive deeper into my art. I began to dive deeper into developing stronger philosophical systems within me. I worked on developing stronger marketing skills and looked for pathways to grow my businesses. Yes, healing from my trauma history started this creative journey and it is a cornerstone of my brand, however, the more I build the smaller of a piece it will become. I see it as the shit that helped create string fertilizer for the garden that I am cultivating. Yes, it plays a role, but I wish to be known for the flowers that I am cultivating in this garden. I wish to be known for my skills set and for the power of my art. I wish for people to be moved by writing. I wish for their souk to be nourished.

The victimhood economy wishes for people to remain small and fragile. It wishes for them offer diluted hope and inspiration that feels draining. It wishes to keep people from their God given role and talents. I kept saying no to the victimhood economy as I placed more distance from it each day. And I am so grateful for it. Yes, it felt like I was swimming against the culture but that is exactly how real counterculture is created. Through strength, passion and fire to go against the current stream of history that we are surrounded by.